"Time heals all wounds." What a load of crap

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Sunday, November 11, 2007

I love to interprete my dreams.. but sometimes, i found it to be so accurate that i dun dare to believe.......

This is wat i dreamt of yesterday....

Bathtub - To see or be in a bathtub in your dream, suggests a need for self-renewal and escape from everyday problems. You need to rid yourself of the burdens that you have been carrying.

Fighting Vampire - The vampires in your dream may suggest that you are feeling drained of your life energy and autonomy. In dreaming that you are fighting these vampires, is a literal depiction of your daily struggles with keeping things in order.

Oh my God... How accurate it is....

Can i escape?????

1:41 PM _______________________________

I think no one is as crazy as me.. 5am in the morning, instead of sleeping i was online....

I was watching movie online.. 一公升的眼泪...despite just finished watching the drama 2 days ago.......

That shows how much i love the show.. haha

The movie is only around an hour, while the drama is about 11 episodes...

Therefore, the drama is 100% much nicer than the movie lor...

Firstly, the actors and actresses in the movie are not as good looking as those in the drama...

Secondly, the storyline was cut away sooooooooooo much.... therefore.... nothing for me to cry...

Not as sad as the drama lor... or i should said... the movie was so 'short-cut' till it was not sad at all lor...

Haiz...

Anyway... i accidentally found another episode..it was like the Part 2 of the drama... which is the life after the lead actress died.. So interesting....

I think i kena poison liao.... I love the show so much that i will be buying the CD !! haha....

1:28 PM _______________________________

Sat was planned to stay at home.. therefore.. had planned family party at night again...

Sat woke up at 130pm and started to watch shows online till 4 plus.. super bored.. n got Lian out...she was bored too... haha

She was persuading me to go to her favourite place, Lunar, with her.. but i rejected her coz i need to be home by 9pm to start my party...

So... she came to fetch me and off we went to Orchard... eat dinner, shopping and la-kopi...

After she failed to jio people to go to Lunar with her, she decided that she should join in my family party and therefore came to my house...

Reached home at 930pm.. started our party.. watching the super funny variety show and time passed by quickly...

Without realising it was already 1am ... n she decided to go home...

THEN!!! She started to persuading me to go to Lunar again... seeing her so much wanted to go Lunar.. I agreed and therefore we went to Lunar and reached there around 130am..

It was my first time at Lunar.. quite a nice place afterall... quite like that place too... chee-na enough... btw.. i love chee-na stuffs... haha...

Coincidentally saw Janet there too.. it been a long time since i last saw her.... live band at Lunar was quite good too.....

Love the band playing all the chee-na instruments too.. eg.. bi pa , gu zhen, er hu, etc etc... the singer aka Lian's idol, Yuan Yuan, was quite a good singer too... found another great place to hang out again.. haha...

Never regret going to Lunar... then finally we left home at 430am.......

Just finish bathing.. super awake lor... dunno wat to do sia........ haizzzzz.......

thinking of tomorrow sucks!! got to work lor... too many outstanding jobs to clear....

N worse... i can feel monday blue liao........ HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Si sad de lor..... :(

4:58 AM _______________________________
Friday, November 09, 2007

The more i think, the more angry i am...

I really cannot tahan anymore...

I had been constantly chasing contractors and yet I was scolded by the school for not fulfulling my responsibility as MA...

The AM's email to me is not only hurting to me... she is insulting me!!

I am angry.. I am frustrated.. I am hurt... But wat can i do?

I did my job... but to her i did nothing... when defects are still in school, i got blame.. but when school is doing well, who got the credit? OM and AM..

Schools are left to me when people resigned.... School is given to me when no one is assigned to it... Ultimately i took all... who in hell thank me if i did a good job? Everyone will point finger n realise that u r still in the company only when schools start complaining!!

When MOE gave SSVH's R&R to CPGFM, who need to handle the project? me!! y me?? no one tell me... i had to accept unwillingly... no one bother how many projects im handling... no one ask whether i can manage... no one !!

Now ACS got problem.. who's fault? mine again....

All the faults are mine.. Perhaps im really wrong..

I'm really tired.. physically and mentally.... I cant handle the stress anymore....

I really dun wish to resign.. but things are not on my side..

I noe crying can never solve problems, neither complaints can.. But im really tired.....

Who can help me?

Who can understand me?

Who can ???????????????????

How i wish i can escape.........................

2:52 AM _______________________________

Juz back from Bugis with Lian, HSZ and her bf....

Super stress now.. coz it's Friday... Everyone is enjoying their Friday.. But i can't .. coz OM is chasing me for her things!!

N i havnt start doing it!! HELP!!

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

2:11 AM _______________________________

Ever since i knocked my head onto the railings on tues.. im having a headache lor...

It's still swollen ... haizz...

Anyway... I really cannot confirm my headache is due to the accident or my working stress.... haizz..

Who can help me?

2:10 AM _______________________________

Finally finished watching 一公升的眼泪..

This show is super nice lor...

Super sad and touching lor...

2:07 AM _______________________________
Tuesday, November 06, 2007

真心的付出不一定会得到童话般的幸福结局。。

也许只能当个安慰他的朋友。。

是我们之间最好的距离。。

9:46 PM _______________________________

我一路上跌跌撞撞。。。

我受伤了。。。

我累了。。。

9:39 PM _______________________________

Super tired now lor.. n it's only Mon!!!!

Journey today --------> AMK - Bugis - TPY -AMK -YCK-AMK-Bukit Timah-Home-Tampines

Super tired now..

Just back from tonnes of gossips and laughters with Denise n Desmond.....

Time to ZzZzzZz..

Left with 4 hrs to sleep..

ARGH!!

2:26 AM _______________________________
Sunday, November 04, 2007

Ever since starting my work at AMK Town Council, I was super tired... Basically having a super tired life now.. no more spare energy for anything.... Even by evening when i went home, I hoon mi straight away.... N the worse thing was that i was supposed to be on leave on Thursday and Friday... But I had no time n was forced to cancel my leave!!! :(

The only exciting day was on Friday, my Halloween Chalet... Was pouring in the afternoon, but luckily stopped in the evening. BBQ as usual... laughter is something we shared...

That night seems to end so fast... After the BBQ, we had some games... Right after the games, I hoon mi straight away... By the time i woke up, it was already 545am on Sat morning... Everyone else was still hoon mi...

Seriously i didnt know wat happened.. the last thing i saw the night before i hoon mi was people started leaving... Actually i was lying down waiting for all to leave then pack a bit then hoon mi one... but i straight away fell asleep when i lie down....

All i can see around me on Sat morning was HSZ sleeping beside me... can't really see who is sleeping at where oso coz it was too dark...

It was only when i decided to go bathing then i saw Gin, Jodel n Denise... It was so sian coz Jodel, HSZ n I still got to work at 830am... n worse thing was that i was having a headache!! *argh*

Went to watch Saw 4 with HSZ after work.... It was a risk coz HSZ was under 21 n the show is rated R21!! That show was not bad... as gross as b4...

But the bloody show didn't affect HSZ n I coz the first thing we discussed when we came out of the cinema is wat to eat for lunch!! Haha... We then proceed to Coffee Club... n we had my favourite mud pie!!! Was so happy....

Sat nite was spent at home partying with parents again... beer, ribs, crabs n tidbits..... yeah!!

Sunday was forced by mother to go to sister's new house... Anyway, only after went to sis's house then realise that Kylia actually had all her stuffs in 3 shares... when i saw her baby seat which is the same as the one in my house, i juz mention did my sis need to get 2.. the answer i got back was 3.. one more in her paternal grandparent's house... faint... even the same series of storybooks in my house can be found there too... faint..........

Anyway, Sis had requested Mum to stay with her for the next 4 days... Leaving my father n i at home only..... haiz.... Juz now when Father n I got home.... I was so not used to it... the worse thing is that Father actually went to sleep at 830pm ... leaving me alone... the house was so empty.....

我是闷的咯 !!

Can someone date me out for dinner coz i had no dinner for the next few days!!??!!

11:58 PM _______________________________

Guan Yin Ma... Please bo bi bo bi HSZ faster recover......

HSZ... Rest more n get well soon !!

11:22 PM _______________________________

拆开你曾经写给我的信件....... 你说你好爱我......

10:51 PM _______________________________

我没有你想像中那么坚强..... 我只是擅长用微笑去伪装

我没有你形容的那么勇敢..... 我偶尔也会慌

10:31 PM _______________________________
Monday, October 29, 2007

Been busy and lazy recently...

Last Friday went to Beach Road with Jodel n Mar to look for our Halloween costumes... Was cracking my head inside the costumes shop as there were too many and i could not decide wat to get....

Finally decided on Musketeers!! :)

After getting the costumes, Jodel n I went to LH for a drink. Debbie joined us shortly... A teacher who is so not teacher... haha... well... shortly Melvin joined us too...Within 5 hours, we had 4 jars of beer, a bottle of Chivas and 1/4 bottle of Martell...

Saturday was a long day for me... It started with my training at Aljunied Town Council at 9am... together with my hangover... haha... The training was supposed to last for the whole day, but most of us left during lunchtime...

After which, went home and went to PS to meet Rodney. Before that, went to Starhub to take a look at the hp and try to get them to waive off the $100 for early upgrading... Failed to do so and then proceeded to Samsumg to check out wat happened to my hp since it cannot be charged... So from 210pm, i got my queue number... It was 8 numbers after the current queue.... BUT by 345pm, i was still in the shop waiting for my turn... That's how efficient Samsung customer service centre is........

N at 345pm ... I started to get really impatient and walked around the shop... then i realised that they had this charging station... So i went up and tried to charge my hp.. N it worked!! This means all i had to do is to get a new charger and i had wasted almost 2 hrs in the Samung Shop queueing!!! OMG!!!

After Rodney arrived, we walked to IOI Plaza to join Ser Teck, Edward and Jamie for pool... Followed by going for dinner... Then i took a cab home as it was almost time for me to get ready for my Halloween Party!! Yeah...

Got myself ready and waited for Jodel to fetch me then we proceeded to Zouk!! It already had a long long queue by the time we reached around 9pm... There were so many funny people around and i enjoyed myself that nite so much... Jodel and I actually spent more time outside Zouk looking at others than spending time in Zouk.......

After Zouk, we still went for Prata... In our costumes, all the customers were like looking at us... Everything was so fun that nite, except that it was too hot!! When i went home, my bra was wet!! OMG!! That's gross!!

Sunday was spent at Tampines... met Jacqueline for lunch at Tampines Mall, then proceeded to Michelle's house to play mahjong.... After mahjong, as usual, went to the prata shop again.. since the nite before had already ate prata... I decided to try on their roti john.. But Ah bang disappoint me sia!!

Today was a happy day though i started to feel blue since yesterday..... It was all blue until i went to TM with Jodel.... After the town council, we went to return our costumes and saw Annie and her mother at Bugis... Went to Bugis to kao bei for waiver for early upgrading but failed... then went to the electronic shop and saw the PSP Slim Limited Edition... Super tempted to buy.. But cost $300++++ so decided to go home n ask my mother whether she wants to sponsor me or not first...

Next, Jodel and I proceeded to TM... Went to Starhub shop and tried kao bei .. Guess wAt... I succeeded this time... not only that my $100 charge for early upgrade is waive, they even gave me a $150 voucher... so ultimately i got a Nokia e65 at $0 !!! So happy!!!

While waiting for my queue, the glass door of TM actually gave way and came crashing to the floor... It was so loud and since the door was only directly outside Starhub, all the customers in Starhub rushed up to see wat actually happened... Including KPO me n Jodel... Haha..

Jodel and i were then standing near that door, trying to find out y actually the door gave way... then suddenly i heard a loud noise... when i turned behind... saw Jodel and i could not stopped laughing... Jodel was trying to lean against the door, but she did not realised that coincidentally that wall was a door and it was not closed properly so the door opened inwards while she leaned on it and the loud noise came from her trying to grip two sides of the door opening......

I was laughing so hard so she started to scold me for laughing her so long... But her face reaction was really damn funny..... haha...

After getting the hp, walked to G-Factory and got a alarm clock... Then suddenly i spotted a Tequoise watch!! So without much hesitation, i bought that G-shock!! haha....

So I came home 满载而归..

Yeah!!!

11:35 PM _______________________________
Thursday, October 25, 2007

Thinking tt on Monday the AM called me at 730am is angry.....

How about she called at 725am on the next day???????????????

I was seriously on fire lor...... Thought that the day before i used a bad attitude can give her some hints... but im wrong.....

Today i thought everything is fine........ yes... there is improvement... coz she called at 8am today!!!!

KNNBCCB

12:26 AM _______________________________
Monday, October 22, 2007

Today is Monday!!

A Monday with Monday blue ......... as usual!!

Last nite slept at 330am... Target to wake up at 9am to go school...

I'm blessed with a raining morning......

It was so shiok to sleep... until ................

KNNBCCB!!

At 730am... AM of *****-******* Primary School called me.... juz to inform me that one of the classroom projector screen jammed!!

I repeat myself..... KNNBCCB!!

Seriously i felt like scolding her lor........... i really almost shouted at her

Does she know the meaning of working hours? Does she know that wat is the meaning of urgency? Does she know the meaning of being considerate? N most importantly.. Does she know the meaning of HELPDESK ????????????????

N i think i was so pissed off by her that i couldn't sleep after i hang the phone........

She ruined my whole Monday and paint my Monday more blue!!

I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!!!

Can anyone feel my anger????????????????????????

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

11:10 PM _______________________________

Was watching 柯有伦's mtv --- 两败俱伤

Suddenly 有一股莫名的感动。。莫名的悲痛。。

So touched....

忧郁症再次发作。。

12:16 AM _______________________________
Saturday, October 20, 2007

Oh no!! It's Sunday again ... -_-''''' Monday bluez....

This week is really tiring and boring.....

Tuesday and Wednesday woke up at 645am... knn.. for dunno like how many million years never wake up so early liao lor.... damn tiring n du lan especially when u took the peak hour mrt.... can knn feel like slapping everyone on the train....

N knn y VAP must set the venue at Furama Riverfront Hotel so ulu leh? Already damn dulan to go for VAP, the venue still so ulu make me lagi du lan lor.... n VAP is all about playing games nia then who can convince me n tel me y i need to wake up so early and reached there by 830am at such ulu place to play games??????????????????????

By Tuesday nite, I was so so so tired that i fell asleep once i reached home.... Again... i woke up grumpily on Wed morning.... but luckily VAP was only half a day .... After VAP, went to Novena Square for training... Again i had no chance to go to office clear my paperwork n i noe its piling high!! STRESS!!!

Thursday was the only chance to go to school this week... went to many schools and only by 430pm then i was able to reach office and get my job done... As usual, OM of XXXX Primary School wanted me to submit all the things she wan by the end of the day!! She ok or not?? She only release me at 4pm and expect me to give her all the things by the end of the day?? So she's trying to tel me that i need to work OT just for HER!! Who the fuck she think she is ???????? KNNBCCB

Went to K-box @ Cineleisure with Debbie, Terence, Janet and Joyce after work.... N i think im going to be deaf soon... music loud, singing loud... n the loudest is debbie's voice... her voice not only loud... it's sharp too!! pengz.....

Friday was a miracle nite... coz i think i was feeling so tired that i was lazy to go out..... So I was having party at home.. I think the only thing i enjoyed for the week is watching the anime that HSZ sent to me... Too bad only 24 episodes ..n i finished watching by Friday....

Saturday was a super shiok day!! I hoon mi till late afternoon.. Felt like cooking so went to the fridge n got some ingredients.. took a packet of instant noodles and cooked it with all the ingredients inside... After which went downstairs to buy 4D and suddenly had cravings for chicken rice. So i bought a packet home too... then i fell asleep again while watching tv... then woke up n had the chicken rice...

Dunno y recently got cravings for chicken... i had been eating 3 times of chicken rice and 2 times of kfc for the week.. not forgeting the other type of chicken which i ate early this week... haha..

After my dinner, was father back home with a packet of prawn and fried chicken!! Yes!! Chicken again!! yeah!! then we got our beer and food ready and proceed to the living room to have a party while waiting for mother to come home.... After the food, we started to bring in all the tidbits we can find in the house and continue the party!!

WOOHOO!!! YEAH!!

So today hoon mi till 230pm... then woke up n played with my niece for the whole day.... Now it's time to hoon mi again...

Monday again.... Sianzzzzzzzzz

1:27 PM _______________________________
Monday, October 15, 2007

I had serious Monday blue...

No... I should say i got October blue... Im feeling blue all day long...

Had been moody for the whole day coz thinking of going to VAP tomorrow n Wed sucks...

Wed still got training in the afternoon.. n got to go all the schools to count toilet cubicles by 18/10... super sianz lor...

The only thing that make me excited is the chalet im organising for my company... Halloween party... more or less confirm liao.. excited... but is in November... can i wake up tomorrow to find that it's November??

I HATE OCTOBER!!!

Anyway, started off my this week by kena fly kite by OM ... Already had appointment with him last week to visit him today at 1030am... as i was on my way to his school.. he called me n said he's going out... n therefore.. i changed my destination to office... sianz.... Should call me earlier so i can sleep till later mah........ nb...

After office went TM with Jodel to have dinner while waiting for Ms Lau Si n Ms Prata... We then proceeded to Starbucks to have coffee n the 4 of us started our rubbish n laughing session again...

Haiz... the later it is the more bluez i am... coz need to go VAP liao..... ARGH!!

11:33 PM